bloodyrosemccoy | Like A Rock ~ Fukitoff Fails

Well, unfortunately, going off Fukitol didn’t work as well as we may have hoped, what with the late night panic attacks and the crushing despair and all. Back on Fukitol I go.

However, since I was trying to go off that one because I’m tired of waking up with half my face contorted like Popeye’s, or having the floor slide out from under me whenever I turn my head, I am going to find me another brand.

This could take a while.

I don’t think the one I’m on right now is a winner. I have finally discovered what people mean when they say they felt “unmotivated” on antidepressants. I always get a certain measure of inertia on them, but this one goes beyond a bit of unmotivation. At this point, activity has been rendered almost purely theoretical. It’s a very strangely numb feeling.

So I think I’m going to have to do a few trials again.

Damn. I hate these reminders that chronic conditions are … well … chronic. Depression sucks.