Like A Rock ~ Fukitoff Fails

[bloodyrosemccoy]

Well, unfortunately, going off Fukitol didn’t work as well as we may have hoped, what with the late night panic attacks and the crushing despair and all. Back on Fukitol I go.

However, since I was trying to go off that one because I’m tired of waking up with half my face contorted like Popeye’s, or having the floor slide out from under me whenever I turn my head, I am going to find me another brand.

This could take a while.

I don’t think the one I’m on right now is a winner. I have finally discovered what people mean when they say they felt “unmotivated” on antidepressants. I always get a certain measure of inertia on them, but this one goes beyond a bit of unmotivation. At this point, activity has been rendered almost purely theoretical. It’s a very strangely numb feeling.

So I think I’m going to have to do a few trials again.

Damn. I hate these reminders that chronic conditions are … well … chronic. Depression sucks.

Comments

[neintales.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I'm rather dreading having to find a new medication if/when I spiral hard again. Abilify did seem to work, just.. yeah, I had towards the end of a year or two on it, a feeling of overly-inertness too.

Oh the other hand, I'm feeling just as inert this month, without being ON anything, so maybe it was a case of the Abilify not working at all. I have no real clue.

Stupid brain chemistry. I grr at it.