bloodyrosemccoy: (Hobbes Waits)
bloodyrosemccoy ([personal profile] bloodyrosemccoy) wrote2009-02-27 03:34 pm

Like A Rock ~ Fukitoff Fails

Well, unfortunately, going off Fukitol didn’t work as well as we may have hoped, what with the late night panic attacks and the crushing despair and all. Back on Fukitol I go.

However, since I was trying to go off that one because I’m tired of waking up with half my face contorted like Popeye’s, or having the floor slide out from under me whenever I turn my head, I am going to find me another brand.

This could take a while.

I don’t think the one I’m on right now is a winner. I have finally discovered what people mean when they say they felt “unmotivated” on antidepressants. I always get a certain measure of inertia on them, but this one goes beyond a bit of unmotivation. At this point, activity has been rendered almost purely theoretical. It’s a very strangely numb feeling.

So I think I’m going to have to do a few trials again.

Damn. I hate these reminders that chronic conditions are … well … chronic. Depression sucks.

[identity profile] thewrongcrowd.livejournal.com 2009-02-27 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Hang in there. Lexapro keeps chugging away... as long as I can put up with the clenched teeth and undying thirst. Paxil pooped but was better in many ways. *sigh*

[identity profile] padparadscha.livejournal.com 2009-02-27 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Lexapro made me gain weight like Jabba the Hutt in a Krispy Kreme factory. Of course, if I keep not moving this stuff'll probably have the same effect. *grumble*

[identity profile] neintales.livejournal.com 2009-02-27 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Just curious, have you tried Abilify yet? Not sure I'd outright recommend it, since, in the end I was paranoid I was becoming a zombie- but it didn't cause weight gain or various other nasty side effects for me, and DID seem to work well for a while at least.

[identity profile] thewrongcrowd.livejournal.com 2009-02-28 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
Hehe. Love the imagery. That was me on Paxil. Have actually lost some weight on Lexxie. It's a little more 'speed-ish' for me, but sometimes I feel brittle.