ext_274542 ([identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_wastrel/) wrote in [personal profile] bloodyrosemccoy 2006-10-22 05:08 am (UTC)

I was a serious Christian for about seven or eight years during my teens, during which I got angry at atheists a lot and was fiercely protective of my beliefs even though most people around me didn't share them. It took me a long process of reflection, discussions and self-examination for me to realize that I can't really believe in God anymore, and the "best" I can do now is agnostic, since I don't know, I don't assume, and I try to understand what the possible advantages and disadvantages of believing and not believing are so I can benefit from the former and avoid the latter. I'm an agnostic because I'm pragmatic. =P

I've read some utterly fascinating things about quantum mechanics, brain waves, electro-magnetic energy, string theory, fractals, the Jungian collective unconscious and the Schumann resonance. I think that some day science will have advanced to a point at which we'll finally understand which greater interconnecting reality all of those religious texts were trying to hint at.

I think that in a meaningful kind of way, the universe has a soul, and even though I don't pray anymore, I can still say "God rest its soul" about a dead animal by the side of the road and mean it. I don't want this being's existence or disappearance on this planet to have gone unnoticed because I feel that it deserves better than that.

I don't know whether there's a God or not, but I do know this: reality in and of itself is an extraordinary thing.

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