Hear you on depression sucking. :-/ I was always too scared of the side effects to get on meds (except for that month in 2006) even though I've often thought about it (since then), so I understand having wanted to stop for a while, but not having been on them could be a large part of why I haven't been doing so well, and I really hope you can find something that works for you better than the Fukitol was.

If we could have the highs without the lows we'd be unstoppable.